Poem-Choose Life

No words are adequate
To explain a lost loved soul
No one here as advocate
It is out of our control  

Tomorrow is not a guarantee
We've heard it all our life
Yet we carry on our day so freely
Thinking that was mostly rife

Young and fun and venturous
Possibilities were unknown
Wanting to be rebellious
Livin it up cause she is grown

Her  ventures came to a halt
As her breath became her last
Tomorrow's gone by default
cause today she would go fast

Why must we take for granted
Our life down here on earth
He created and implanted
Our life and what it's worth

He is a jealous God
All He wants from us is love
Not to put up a facade
But in Him to be proud of

Wasted time on earth
With selfish plans ahead
Not sharing His love and worth
But leaving things unsaid

You have a choice today
Live for Him instead
Witness all the way
With Christ youll move ahead

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Poem: He's Waiting at the Door

I found myself alone
in a world of utter shame
I had so many stones
Surrounding me in flames

The flames were oh so fierce
Stones crumbled at my feet
My feet were almost seared
Felt nothing but defeat

I have failed my Lord above
Giving into worldly gain
All I want is to feel loved
Not pounded by the rain

How do I end this fight
I feel inside my soul
How can I see the light
When I'm empty and so cold

He spoke and said "My Child"
I'm waiting on your call
Your pain is not to mild
That I can't break your fall

But Lord you cannot see
My sins and all this shame
My flesh wants me to flee
My life is just a game

No purpose in my life
I'll never find true love
Just fealthy pain and strife
Nothing more to be thought of

Again I say "My Child"
Have you not heard my cry
It will all be worthwhile
Your needs I will supply

Just call upon my Name
I'm standing at your door
Waiting for you to proclaim
And live forevermore

In Me you are made whole
Don't struggle in the flames
I will fill your empty soul
And forevermore exclaim

God is God alone
He'll carry you thru the storm
He sits upon the throne
In Him you are transformed.

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Guidance

I'm so stressed out right now. I am wide awake at 1:11 am. ...gotta be up for Sunday school and absolutely don't wanna go. And it's not that I don't wanna go to church....it's the fact that I don't wanna go where I'm going. It's hard to explain.  I love my church and the "family" tgere. My Pastor is a wonderful man and preacher....and I'm close to their whole family. ...and  I am used....but I'm just not happy. I miss being at Northside UPC. Frustrating thing about that is..  I don't have the same relationships at Northside as I do at my current church. In fact....i struggled to b accepted there...why do i wanna go back so bad?? It's not necessarily Northside that I miss....it's the United pentecostal.  I can't explain the difference the praise and worship is so different.....I get so much more out of it.....I also kinda wanna go to a church away from my family. I love my family but it seems like I fight with mom constantly over so much when it comes to church....and she does have every right...I'm wishy washy. ...but I wanna be on my own and stop being somewhere just because it's what or where she wants me. I don't wanna hurt her or anyone from there....but I'm in for the wrong reasons.
Lord please help me . I need it! ! I need guidance!!

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